
Then as he was getting ready for school I received an email from my mom telling me that Pacer had died. I was sad for myself and my parents but I knew how this would break Owen's heart. I chose not to tell him until after school. He knew that Pacer had been sick and was hoping to send him a present to make him feel better. I had the unpleasant task of telling O that Pacer had gotten more ill and was having trouble breathing. Before I could finish Owen said "and he died?" I told him yes and he immediately started crying. He sobbed for 45 minutes. He loved that dog like it was his own. He just kept saying he missed him and wanted to play with him. As I held my sweet boy I cried too. I wanted to take the hurt away and yet I knew it was inevitable. Dogs don't live forever and loss is part of life. Owen was able to call my mom before he went to bed and talk to her about Pacer. She assured him that Pacer knew O loved him and that he died while Gramz and Baba held him. He seemed OK talking to her and I heard him say "GramZ when I get back to the United States I'm going to get a dog like Pacer, he might be a different color but he'll look like him and I'll name him Pacer too." He has such a sweet heart! It was hard to watch my baby take one more step out of the innocence of his childhood. I wish I could keep him from the inevitable hurt that will cross his path, but I know I can't. But I know that I can trust God to care for him. Please say a prayer for my O and for GramZ and Baba. They are missing a sweet, feisty, black and white cocker spaniel and it will take a little time to heal.
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Oh, Kristen - this one hit me hard. I am a major dog-person and your blog made me cry. What a waste of mascara!!! Thanks for sharing the thoughts and words from your little guy. I have cried over many dogs in my life and it hurts just as much to hear other's stories. I hope O and your parents find comfort in their memories and that O gets a great dog when he grows up!!! Thanks, again, for sharing!!!!
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